P.E.A.C.E.

I just had to do one of the hardest things I've had to do during this quarantine period. I realize that I hate letting people down even though I preach about letting things go that disrupt your peace and though it is the thing that would be the best for you, it isn't always the easiest. It was giving me sleepless nights and I asked for a lot of advice on the matter. In all my discussions we came to the conclusion that I cannot keep on with the thing that was disrupting my peace. When something is disturbing your peace, you need to let it go. God will supply that person you have let go of with exactly what they need, sometimes it isn't you.

When you feel that your workplace, job, relationship or friendship is taking your peace, you need to get out of it. It takes a leap of faith and a lot of courage to let go of those things and you may feel guilty, but God wants to give you something better. When you are scared to feel alone and want to jump into another relationship, you need to let go of that fear. Find the courage to give yourself time to heal. When your friendships are taking all your energy, leave them at the feet of Jesus Christ.

I heard a song that spoke right to my heart while writing this blog post, it is called: "Peace" by Josh Baldwin. The lyrics go as follows:

In the land of my heart

In the fathoms of my soul

When the waters of my fears begin to rise

I feel your love taking hold

In the valley of my mind

On the road of the unknown

When the shadows of my doubts are closing in

You are the light that brings me home

When I breathe in

I don't understand but I can feel it

Every waking moment in Your presence

This peace won't let me go

There is freedom

In laying all my worries at Your feet again

Even in my struggle I'm surrendering

Your peace won't let me go

When my strength is nearly gone

When my wells have all run dry

It's Your kindness that will lead me to Your arms

Where I find grace that You supply

When I breathe in

I don't understand but I can feel it

Every waking moment in Your presence

This peace won't let me go

There is freedom

In laying all my worries at Your feet again

Even in my struggle I'm surrendering

Your peace won't let me go

Surely goodness and mercy will follow me

Surely all that You promised

Is so much more than I can see

I will rest in the assurance that I have all I need

Here in the Father's peace

When I breathe in

I don't understand but I can feel it

Every waking moment in Your presence

This peace won't let me go

There is freedom

In laying all my worries at Your feet again

Even in my struggle I'm surrendering

Your peace won't let me go

This song was a reminder to me that when God wants to close a door or chapter in your life, no matter how long or short it was, he will put it on your heart and sometimes it will be so uncomfortable that you cannot ignore it. Listen to the voice inside your heart and head that tells you to let go. God promises us peace, anything that gives you anxiety, stress or sleepless nights is not of him or comes from him. It is so crazy, but as soon as I let go of what was taking my peace, my playlist only played songs of peace... God can literally talk to you through anything and for me it is mostly music. Another song that spoke to me was "Lord Send Revival" by Hillsong and the lyrics are as follows:

Peace like a river wash over me Immerse me in water as deep as the sea Hide me in love Your healing embrace Peace like a river wash over me

As I worship Your majesty I worship Your holy Name Jesus my everything All that I am is Yours

Come Holy Spirit rain down on me Break open the heavens and drench the unseen (oh) Pour out Your presence as I pour out Your praise Come Holy Spirit Lord have Your way

As I worship Your majesty I worship Your holy Name Jesus my everything All that I am is Yours

I worship Your majesty I worship Your holy Name Jesus my everything All that I am is Yours (Oh Lord Jesus yeah)

Open the heavens Fling wide the gates Flood every heart with mercy Pour out Your presence Inhabit our praise As we cry holy holy

Open the heavens Fling wide the gates Flood every heart with mercy Pour out Your presence Inhabit our praise As we cry holy holy (this is our prayer)

Open the heavens Fling wide the gates Flood every heart with mercy Pour out Your presence Inhabit our praise As we cry holy holy

As we cry holy holy (Whoa whoa)

Lord send revival Lord send it now A move of Your Spirit Heaven break out Come now in power Cover this land Like You've done it before Would You do it (oh come on) again

So many relationships and friendships I have ended, no matter how difficult it was, ended up being a blessing. I stopped feeling stressed and having my anxiety attacks when I left them, and this even applies to some of the jobs I've had. Sometimes you help someone more when you step out of the equation and let God take control. Like I said, it isn't easy. For me, like I said, it is one of the most difficult things to do. My sister reminded me this morning that sometimes you have to put yourself and your peace first.

Think about what is no longer bringing you peace and find a way to let it go. Have courage, but always remain kind. You letting them go does not mean you don't love them or care about them anymore, it just means that you know that you help yourself and them more when you step out of the situation.