ANCHOR TO MY SOUL

I've said this before in one of my last posts, but I am going to say it again. I find it really difficult to share or write about things I am going through, when I am going through them. It is easier to write about them when you have some wisdom to share after having learnt what it is that you needed to learn going through what it is you were going through.

I am not going through much right now, however I have been unexplainably exhausted and mellow. I am still joyful, however I do not have energy to do the mundane things, such as: clean, cook, gym, put effort into how I look, to go out and meet people. Some may even say those are signs of depression, and I beg to differ. I think I just need rest. I am trying to take everything a lot slower and I know that most likely by next week I will be able to be up and running again.

One thought that blew my mind the other day was that, as much as we've been living in our bodies our whole lives, we have no idea what goes on with them. Like our bodies know when we are burnt out and overworking, but we don't realize it until it's too late. Our bodies know when we have a sickness or disease, yet, we need to go to the Doctor and do tests in order to understand and pin point what the problem is. How weird is that? I think it makes me understand more and more about the fact that these are just vessels, shells. That we are here in these bodies only for a short period of time.

1 John 4:2-3

By this you know the Spirit of God: every spirit that confesses that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is from God; and every spirit that does not confess Jesus is not from God.

Philippians 3:20-21

But our citizenship is in heaven, and from it we await a Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ, who will transform our lowly body to be like his glorious body, by the power that enables him even to subject all things to himself.

1 Corinthians 15:44

It is sown a natural body; it is raised a spiritual body. If there is a natural body, there is also a spiritual body.

This is not ever to say that we should not look after our bodies or try to understand them, but to remember that these are temples. Vessels that God can use to do His work. What we do with our bodies ultimately reflects our relationship with Him. But now what about what I am currently feeling in this exhaustion and lack of energy to go to the gym? Does this mean I am not glorifying Him with my body? I honestly do think it is such a good habit to have to move your body daily, but I truly do believe that rest is sometimes needed and we have to listen to our bodies sometime.

However, we need to be careful that we do not fall into the habit of laziness. See, even though I may not have energy to gym, I do still need to clean, to take care of my space. I have been doing little by little each evening, however those are the kinds of things that begin to effect your mental head space. So how do we change this? How do we not fall into this habit of allowing things left undone? I think for starters, doing it immediately seems pretty reasonable. The second would possibly be to actually have a schedule. I live by schedule, it helps me focus and get things done. Having a set routine helps me to stay balanced in my every day life. As much as I sometimes fail at this, I am slowly getting there.

We have to be patient with ourselves. Realizing we can only do so much in our human capacity. However, once small step, is still a step closer.